• DEATH, The unpleasant subject and dealing with grief

    Death unpleasant subject dealing grief

    A peaceful death, an unexpected death, a tragic death – no matter how it occurs – dealing with the death of a loved one or friend remains extremely difficult. Guaranteed and unavoidable; yet it’s a subject that will also be unpleasant. It’s unpleasant because we fear the unknown.  And when we fear something it makes us uncomfortable and anxious.

    This past week has been rough. With the death of six people I know within days from each other. Death made its appearance like a thief in the night in the middle of June.

    All six (family, friends and acquaintances) who passed were frail, weak and had sick beds.  They too feared death at some point in their lives but I believe in my heart that they were at peace with the fact that their final hour was close by.  Some were able to converse and say what should happen when they die. And yes we as the surviving family and friends knew it was just a matter of time; we knew that death would release them from their suffering. During this time the family made to-do lists, updated necessary documentation and started making the necessary preparations should anything happen.  They waited in anticipation. But ironically; the day when death came knocking we all remained physically and mentally unprepared.

    This beckons the question. How do we as the surviving family and friends deal with death and grief.

    My first real experience with grief happened on 11 December 1993 when I was 17. The day my grandmother passed away after a long illness.  It was the first time that someone whom I was very close to passed away. Faced with the terrible task to break the news to my cousin whom at the time was only 14.  Whilst telling her, I laughed. I didn’t sob, I freakin laughed.  Undoubtedly, my cousin was angry with me as she thought I was making a joke. I told her it was the truth. She punched me and said ‘how can you laugh about something so terrible.’

    Was I inhumane to laugh at a time when I was suppose to cry my eyeballs out?

    You see; I was terrified to break the news to my cousin. As a teenager, I was naive and didn’t really know how to deal with her reaction; let alone my own. Laughing was my coping mechanism in a time of grief. It was a tool to cover up my own true feelings.

    As human beings, we all grief differently. Whether we cry, laugh, are raging with anger, focus on work to get our mind off it or want to be left alone – it’s our defence mechanism. There is really no right or wrong way to grief.  It’s a reaction we have to the loss we are experiencing.

    We are often left with a loss of words when we express our condolences to someone who lost a loved one. A hug and a few words of encouragement is often the norm. Although we are sincere in our actions; we avoid talking about feelings as we are afraid that it will make that person sad. Instead we opt to make small talk. It’s awkward and something we want to get over and done with as soon as possible. And once the funeral is over; life continues and people move on. In time, friends and family will stop offering support. But what we forget; those left behind are still grieving.

    Kylie McCorquodale explains grief beautifully in her blog post when she lost her father to cancer.

    The truth is, to grief is healthy and normal.  Grief is unique to each person. It can bring out the best and worst in someone.  And although there are said to be five stages of grief named; denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Some people might relate to all the stages, some might not. It is a process that takes time. A process that can be overwhelming and difficult to deal with. For some the grieving process takes longer than for others. Then there are some who never get over the grieving process. Grief should not be rushed and yet society expects people to get over it as soon as possible and to stop dwelling on their loss. Some might need counselling and other interventions to process the grief.

    Why do we grief?

    Because we loved that person deeply. They are gone from our lives and will never return. They are no longer part of our present or our future plans. Refusing to accept that we won’t be able to touch them, speak to them or share things with them.

    We grief for us being left behind. We feel broken, alone and lost. During this time we see no way forward and question our life, our purpose and our faith.

    Because of the memories we have. We reminisce of the good old days. Birthdays, special holidays, anniversaries and celebrations are hard to deal with. We struggle to let go our loved one’s belongings and we hold on to it for as long as possible.

    Regrets – could’ve s, should’ve s, would’ve s that we never got to. We regret not spending enough time with our loved one, not being there to say good bye, and all other missed opportunities.

    We grief because of guilt. Guilty of our actions towards that person. That we failed in our duties towards that person.

    Because we are angry. Angry that this has happened to you and your family. Anger towards the person who passed away for not seeking medical help in time. We lash out towards those who are responsible for the death whether it was an accident or murder. That you needed more time and that you hoped for the best but it turned out differently. Anger towards the medical staff for not diagnosing the disease sooner. That there is no cure. Anger towards God for the suffering caused.

    You won’t truly understand the pain of grief until death comes to visit your home. And although they say time heals, I think you don’t completely get over grief; you start understanding it, you cope with it and start living with it. For now the best we can do is to continue to pray for those who are grieving.

    Grief never ends. But it changes.

    It’s a passage, not a place to stay.

    Grief is not a sing of weakness, nor a lack of faith…

    It is the price of love.

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    1. June 26, 2018 / 5:11 pm

      How terrible! Sending you so much love xx

      • Noleen Miller
        June 27, 2018 / 6:56 pm

        Thank you

    2. June 26, 2018 / 8:35 pm

      As I get older its something I certainly pay more attention of. When my dad passed several years ago and then lots of relatives. Even some people I grew up with. Its one of those things that is unpleasant but something we all have to accept – Its always something good to have in the open. #DreamTeam

      • Noleen Miller
        June 27, 2018 / 6:56 pm

        It is part of the life cycle but still it is so hard to deal with when it happens #dreamteam

    3. June 26, 2018 / 9:49 pm

      What a dreadfully sad month. I’m sorry for you. Death and grief are hard. #TwinklyTuesday

      • Noleen Miller
        June 27, 2018 / 6:53 pm

        Thank you so much #Twinklytuesday

    4. I am so sorry for your losses, what a tough month you have had. A poignant post, and an important topic to talk about. Thanks for sharing. #TwinklyTuesday

      • Noleen Miller
        June 27, 2018 / 6:46 pm

        Thank you #Twinklytuesday

    5. June 27, 2018 / 3:26 pm

      What a sad month for you and yours. Sending hugs

      • Noleen Miller
        June 27, 2018 / 6:45 pm

        Sad indeed. Thanks for the hugs

    6. June 27, 2018 / 10:24 pm

      Ah it is so tough to lose people but we have to if we want the benefits of loving and being loved. As you say, grief is a very individual sport with of course some common strands that make us very human. There are great charities out there who can help us cope and move forwards positively. I found after losing my parents and then my brother that the only thing I can think of is how important it is to proactively make magical memories for their own sake but also because they sustain us going forward and those we leave behind too. I also think it is important to integrate the best qualities of our loved ones in our lives and those of our children. Look after yourself at this challenging time #TwinklyTuesday

    7. June 28, 2018 / 11:56 am

      So sorry to hear about your sadness, what ever the circumstances death is hard. X #stayclassymama

    8. June 28, 2018 / 1:19 pm

      So sorry to hear of your losses, thats terrible. Such a beautifully written and important post, thank you for sharing stayclassymamma

    9. June 28, 2018 / 7:27 pm

      I never really though of death and grief until I lost my mum when i was 24 #DreamTeam

    10. June 29, 2018 / 1:47 am

      My dad was in hospital for the last 3 months of his life. I was lucky I was able to visit him every second day during that time. I was lucky that in the hour long drives to and from the hospital, I decided I would listen to audio books in the car (as it was 2 hours in traffic every second day. I by chance picked Augusten Burroughs “This is how” which includes advice on how to let someone die. This helped me greatly in terms of what I could give to dad, and what I could get in terms of shared precious moments. Can’t recommend this book enough.

    11. July 2, 2018 / 7:14 pm

      I am so sad for you and you have my sympathies for such a hard month. Ugh… We all need to read these kinds of posts. Thank you! #dreamteam

      • Noleen Miller
        July 2, 2018 / 7:51 pm

        Thank you Lisa, I appreciate your heartfelt sympathy. That is the cycle of life #dreamteam

    12. July 3, 2018 / 8:49 pm

      So sorry to read this you sound like you’ve had a horrible week. To be honest I try not to think about it but I’m sure that one day it will be a conversation I have to have with my daughter and son. Thanks for linking up at #fortheloveofBLOG. Claire x

    13. July 3, 2018 / 9:50 pm

      I’m so sorry for your losses especially as they all happened so close together. I think it is important to show children it is ok to express emotions. Thanks for linking up with #stayclassymama

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