• To my girls; thank you

    to my girls thank you

    To my girls,

    Thank you for coping so well under these circumstances. I kinda think both of you love being at home as you can sleep late, go to bed later and enjoy the advantages of the relaxed house rules.

    I know you miss your grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends. But when you talk to them on the phone or video call them you are so cheerful and optimistic. View Post

    Daughter of mine; you’re officially a teenager

    daughter officially teenager

    My sweet Lea, on Sunday you turned 13. The years have gone by in a flash. You know every year when your birthday comes along I get a bit sentimental. As my first born; your entrance into this world has been dramatic. Needless to say, mothering you for the past 12 years has been easy.  But now you have entered a new phase in your life. I think I prepared you more for this phase than mentally preparing myself.  In all honestly, I was still in denial. Until Google reminded me that you can now have full control over your own account.  That was enough affirmation for me. Daughter of mine, you are officially a teenager. View Post

    Measuring Up: The tall and short about my child’s size

    When your child doesn’t look their age.

    measuring child size

    It did not surprise me when my daughter gave a sarcastic response of  “I might not look like a nine-year old to you; but I am – okay”.

    This was in reply to a family member’s comment on her size that does not match her age. If I said this was the first time such a comment was made, I would be lying.  It happens all the time. Uninvited comments from strangers, family and friends. View Post

    12 years of motherhood and loving it

    12 years motherhood loving

    My daughter, Lea is in such a happy mood this morning. Hopping, skipping and singing at the top of her voice. It’s her birthday and she has been waiting for this day to arrive with eager anticipation.  I watch her and smile.  There is so much love that is booming at the moment.  A love that is eternal and unmeasurable.

    As I watch her, an exhilarating feeling comes over me. This child made me a mother. Knowing that my husband and I made this human, and that she is half mine and his DNA. Like my kids will always say “we are the best thing that ever happened to the two of you.”

    And they are spot on, they are the best thing that ever happened to us. Knowing what we know now, life without them would be pretty dull.

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    Born too soon: The uncertainties and ultimately surviving the NICU Journey

    On World Premature Day

    Giving hope to new NICU parents

    born soon uncertainties ultimately surviving NICU journey

    To the new NICU mom and dad, it is undoubtedly not your desire to become one. Whatever the reason for your baby being born too soon; it was a situation that you had no control over.  You did not envisage this to be part of your birthing plan. Even more so that your tiny little human will be lying in an incubator hooked to beeping machines, struggling to breath and fighting for his/her life.

    As you sit in the chair staring at your tiny baby, you look tired and worried. The minutes turn to hours but it feels like a lifetime. You experience multiple emotions at once – joy, love, fear, sadness, anger and frustration.  Feeling helpless and alone and thinking that nobody understand your heartache.  A feeling of uncertainty about what the future holds is not strange.

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